When doubt takes over
Sometimes in life, you have to meet with pessimists to channel the negativities into your strength. They say, one’s loss is another’s gain. It’s the same concept, really.
Hello friends, I’ve been back in Singapore for 2 weeks already. However, I’ve been in recluse. I’m in a stage where I’m neither here nor there. There were and are alot of instances I was made to realize, here I am stepping on this same ground while the sky is still high up there, not within reach, at all. What I really mean to say is, humility is still the key to life.
I have faced with situations where I was disregarded, which made me question myself if I have a need to be there (those situations I mean, not the locality, mind you). I have been in situations where I was supposed to matter in the decision but I was omitted from the discussion itself. These made me value the power of effective communication.
Yes, you may be communicating your thoughts, intentions to someone else. But if you did not effectively communicate them, the receiver may or may not get exactly the point you wanted to get across. Dare I say I was hit the hardest when it happened too close to home.
The fact that I’m already home makes it worse. Yes, I’m speaking in vagueness where you’ll need to find those hidden sentences between these written lines to know exactly what I’m talking about.
Back to my main point. I’m sure you’ve ever faced with a very conflicting person. Or maybe, he’s not exactly conflicting but his current situation made him so. You might think at that point of time you are settled and contented. But once you are faced with a person like that, your mind get to thinking. You start to question your beliefs in certain things.
I guess, my heart is still not settled. I’m still confused.
Anyhow, that’s my brain vomiting its excess thoughts. Here, some updates on what has happened so far.
In the short 3 months that I’ve been working with Shegar, I have gained tremendous experiences. His world is fast-paced. Once, he received a call in the late evening for a job needed the very next day in Melacca. I was glad to have assisted him throughout the whole day at the on-site. I met with 4 popular Malaysian artistes, which at this time I am not able to disclose their identities.
The following week, I managed to catch CUCI the musical and saw (or met? no, not really) the veteran singer, Salamiah Hassan who was watching the same show with her daughter, Atilia. The same week, we had one of the huge event at MMU (Multimedia University) at Cyberjaya. It was the launching of its charity program, Yayasan Universiti Multimedia, headed by the former Malaysian PM’s wife, Tun Dr Siti Hasmah. And definitely Tun Dr Mahathir was there too. The guest artiste for the night was…
.. Dato’ Siti Nurhaliza!
I admit, I’m not a fan of hers but meeting a person of her stature was definitely overwhelming. I’m sure you can tell by the wide grin on my face. The job definitely has it perks.
Since I’ve been back home, it’s quite an irony, how much propositions I suddenly have. The Wan himself have been getting on quite well with his side projects. One of the latest was a backdrop on a stage outside Takashimaya.
So people, doubt is never a negative thing. It’s good to have doubt, so you get to question your intentions and movements. Once you have the answer to the question, you know then you’re doing the right thing; that you’ve ascertained yourself of your doings.
But, too much of doubt is not advisable. Heh.