When love is the greatest thing in life

It was a typical Thursday I know my mom would be fasting. I offered to buy her food for her breaking of fast but she told me she had already cooked mee rebus. Mee rebus, for those who don’t know, is always prepared with yellow noodles. But I would prefer not to have yellow noodles.

So when I arrived at Mom’s in time for my dinner, Mom announced gleefully that she had prepared some mee hoon (or some call it bee hoon – rice vermicelli) especially for me! I was so touched and felt love like a little girl once more. After dinner, we sat in the hall and Mom began her prep talk – just like how I always remember it, and Dad joining in. I used to detest the times for prep talks but now that I’m married and living away from her, I yearn to hear the words she has to say.

I guess Allah’s angels didn’t wait long and gave me my first sign there, through my mom and dad. The best people in my life ever.

It always takes the people you love the most to hit you the hardest with the facts of life ya? I can think clearly now after the talk I had with Mom and Dad. I see their concerns and I should have realized it a long time ago. Everyone has left, I need to too.

Thank you for sending me even the faintest of light, Allah. Alhamdulillah!

When you win some and lost a whole lot more

I have made the decision to work with Shegar in Malaysia. His studio is in Petaling Jaya, where we (the Wan and I) will be at most of our time there, too.  A whole of significant things happened in the past months and has left a huge impact in me. When it comes to family and friends, it hits the heart the most.

The group of my heart has shattered somehow. I wanted to sit on the fence for the longest time I could. But this fat ass seem to shake and gave way. God knows which side of the fence I’m at now. My faith in friendship shook. I just wish things didn’t happen the way they did. But it did and I cannot turn back the clock, nor do I feel obligated to conform to what seemed to be of my advantage.

Taking up something which I thought was a dream come true couldn’t have tested me more in any way. I am now challenged financially, emotionally and physically. I just pray that Allah showered a lil bit more of love and show me the way to escape from this ruthless fall. Some signs will definitely be helpful.

I never wanted to leave G. Never. The Wan twittered yes, one was about G but the leaving part, wasn’t about him at all.

In life, I guess every one of us has a soft spot for something. We tend to lick our wounds and say, “hush hush, it’s just a small cut” when we know the cut couldn’t have happened if someone hadn’t pushed us down. We tend to give a million 2nd chances, trying not to be uncouth to others, yet, we forget that it is ourselves that hurt the deepest.

Venturing in this own business is not easy. You get asked unconsciously, or rather sometimes, consciously, if you should return to the rat race. But I take the words of a very tough girlfriend who says, “times are tough but only the toughest survives”, like a mantra. I hope I can be of a sturdy pillar for the Wan, and we can both emerge from this rut stronger, better, richer in experience and wealth. And InsyaAllah, that Allah will always send us his Angels to remind us not to forget those who put us where we are and where we were before the triumph.

Here’s to triumph! WE CAN SO DO IT!!!!

Amin!

When the year is halved already

Hello! I’ve been kept busy with my new responsibility to cover Anugerah 2009 for Gumbira. I never thought that it will excite me this much. Anugerah is a singing competition for the Malay Singapore TV channel Suria.

The 1st round which was on last week was enjoyable. I guess since I’ve followed through the progress of the contestants from the auditions rounds, I get charged up seeing how they’ve improved in both their styling and singing.

And with all the excitement, I seem to let the days zoomed by! It’s already mid June, which means, half the year has already passed! In this half year, I’ve been tested in so many ways. Financial, marital, friendship, family.. oh well. The list goes on.

While family will always be there to support you, friends matter just as much, in terms of moral and emotional support. It’s disheartening that even at this age, you still have friends who betrays you. Leveraging is acceptable among friends, but, betraying shouldn’t even exist.

I hope I’ll be stronger, emerging from all the hurt and downfalls this 1st half of 2009, to have a better half of the year to look back being better when 2010 comes.

I’ve said before, that if I’m given the opportunity I’ve been looking for, I’ll grab it by it’s neck and suck the marrow out of its life! A greener pasture is awaiting me now. I’m looking forward to all the positivities it’ll give me.

When my English is deteriorating

Teruk nya English aku in the last post. Bleargh!

When we got only little leisure time in KL

There isn’t much leisure time for us in KL this time round. Although we’ve been here for 2 weeks today, time was spent purely for work. We worked with Shegar for his ALL MUST GO sale and we discussed some business matters.

We did manage to catch Imran’s No Black Tie event and his album launch (press conference) the following week at the same place.

Imran's No Black Tie Event

Launch of Punca Dan Tindakan

As we didn’t have much leisure time, I didn’t bring along my camera everywhere we go. But here’s some of the places where I managed to take some photos with my handphone.

KL, from a high point of view

Imran and Faliq brought us to a hill in Ampang (correct me if I’m wrong, Imran) on the way to Shegar’s. The cool wind and view was awesome. It was a shame we didn’t have the camera with us. It is the whole of KL from a very high point of view. I wonder what it’s like in the day. Kan?

Menara KL from Doraisamy

One of the places we HAVE to go every time we’re in KL is at Doraisamy (where Heritage Row is). The Indian-style soup there is to die for. I’ve always noticed the Menara KL whenever we’re at Doraisamy but never remembered to snap a photo. When I looked up that night, I just took out my camera and snapped it. I love the lights streaks.

I mentioned in my earlier post that last Sunday we went to Low Yat to get my baby upgrade its RAM. We came across a stall that does laptop skins but didn’t have any designs with us to get my laptop skinned. So we returned to Low Yat today to get some more cheap computer stuff and of course, to get my baby skinned. It is one of PlayPause’s earlier works when the Wan just started designing flyers for drum&bass events in SG. I love it so much I asked him to make it into a PlayPause design. It is only now, I get to use it for print. Here’s how my baby look like now….

my "new" laptop!

And since today is our last day/night in KL, we made full use of it. We again went around KL. Pavilion/Sg Wang/LowYat/Pavilion and now we’re at Krispy Kreme. Yes! Krispy Kreme has arrived in KL! The last time we were here, we missed just by a day to grace the opening of Krispy Kreme in Times Square. So now, we’re here! It closes at midnight (1am during weekend nights) and offers free WIFI! heh

a dozen Krispy Kreme to share

We’re bringing home a dozen doughnuts to share with Imran and Faliq later. Singapore, I see you tomorrow!